How quickly would you drop...?

Lately, I've been finding myself on the brink of...insanity.

Not insanity in a sense that I'm INSANE, but insanity in a sense that...I could see my life panning out to be a corny love movie.

I have never felt happier. I feel like there's no place to go from here except up. While things happen to sometimes bring me down, I feel like sadness and anger are all just a part of life. Without those things, you wouldn't be able to feel true happiness. You can not know the true brightness of light without having been in the dark. And I think I was in the dark for a really long time. I think I just wanted to stay there. I was content being miserable. But I didn't know I was bring miserable until misery hit me in the face really hard.

And I got up and just started loving life. Complete 180. There are things in my life that I want to show other people. I just want to show people that things are never concrete. You have the power to change them for the better. Fate works in mysterious ways, but it also gives you struggles that only you can handle. God blesses you with opportunities that may not seem like opportunities, but turn out to be the greatest thing that could have ever happened to you.

I feel so close to the people I have surrounding me, and very cautious about the people I do let into my life. I feel free of the people I have washed my hands of, and glad they are no longer poisoning me and weighing me down.

I feel extremely elated when it comes to this certain situation that I'm in right now. And it has never felt more right. I feel like I'm in a mixture of Serendipity, Brown Sugar, You've Got Mail, Sleepless in Seattle, The Wedding Date and The Holiday. And as much as I tried to be this super tough beezy and show face to a lot of people, I secretly (well, I guess it's not so secret anymore) wanted my life to be a love movie that people watch under the blankets and eat ice cream to late at night when they come home late from work, or from a hard day of school.

Yeah. I'm super hopeless romantic like that. I mean...I still feel like you have to be a smart tough bitch about things and if things suck, things suck, don't fool yourself. Just get the eff out of the relationship...and don't let your guard down...and all that stuff that people who were hurt in their pasts tend to be advocates for.

But...yeah, lately I feel like a hopeless fool. I feel like a five year old reaching for something really really high, and it's just RIGHT THERE, but your fingers are too short to get it.

I feel like I have something really good on my plate right now. And it's going to be amazing once I get a taste of it.

I don't feel the need to get away, but I feel the need to be spontaneous.

I feel the need to get what I want...to be the stories that I want to tell; not just think them up in my mind and wish they would happen to me.

The last breath you breathed is the last breath like that that you will breathe. Does that make sense? Every second is a milestone. You'll never get that second back. So I just want to live my life so amazingly awesome, and give people a run for their money...

Inspire people to live...

To just jump on a plane and go to...somewhere. And go where the wind takes you.

Smile...because it takes less muscles to smile than to frown. And it prevents wrinkles.

And be a strong independent person. Don't let bullshit get to you because if you do, YOU'RE the one lookin' like a fool...not the one who did you wrong first.

Don't retaliate, it's just not worth it. Why waste your energy? Your breath? Your precious space in your brain for useless bullshit? Ain't worth it.

Drink a drank or something...indulge a little, but don't be COMPLETELY hedonistic. Be a philanthropist...help those who can not help themselves. Hold a hand. Smile at someone. Give them your leftovers. Write someone a note. I don't know.

I'm totally blogging instead of studying. Case in point of me being useless...well...hopefully not completely useless because I hope you take all the things I've said above into account.

BE A FRIGGIN HIPPIE! Yahyahayeahyeah!