it`s been lightyears
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i`ve decided to resurrect my nearly dead blog. i have virtually nothing to write about. sometimes i don`t even like writing in here. what`s the point? no one reads it...besides, i`m pointless. so i hear my show's getting cancelled. someone needs to give me their justification for that. i mean, how rude. so i`m caught, and i don`t want to get out. i like where i am. i`ve discovered passion. although my passion is premature, it`s existent, and i like where it can go. i like it a lot. it gives me contentment. i like contentment. i`ve learned that hope`s almost as pointless as i am. i mean, why should you hope for something more than you`ve got...you obviously have what you have for a reason. at least that`s the entire explanation of existentialism. so. shit happens, get over it. it happened for a reason. the reason may seem purely retarded, but hey, whatever. you`ll get over it. you don`t have control over it. you only have control of your reactions. be proactive don`t react sourly. and i am officially regurgitating the information i have gathered from numerous philosophy and english classes which teach subjects almost in parallel motion. it`s crazy really, but i love it. i love to think. even though thinking gets me in crazy places sometimes. EMO CHILD! i heart that stuff. it`s beautiful, it`s meaningful. it is what it is. it`s depression and the root of feeling. good shit. it`s like orange juice on a hot day =). woot. screw the lemonade. orange juice it is. lalala. i`ve been saying the "lalalas" a lot. wouldn`t that be a cool band name? well, if you disregard that there`s already the "yeah yeah yeahs". and there`s that other cool band name "my fat sister", but apparently the label wouldn`t take it because it was too derogatory. i find that oddly funny. it makes me snicker. well, i`m off to burn cds for myself now. later =).