i`m so pointless
SERIOUSLY. i am so forking pointless. why do i exist?! someone tell me already. i can`t ever do anything. i have a license but can i use it? NOOOO. i can`t use my own stupid license. while all my friends are out enjoying their teenage years, i`m here at home rotting my ass at home waiting for college to come so i can move far far away and just GO THE FUCK AWAY. i can`t fucking stand it! GOD FUCKING DAMNIT. i`m going FUCKING CRAZY. i can`t FUCKING DO ANYTHING. and there`s no easy fucking way to tell my parents you know! i try telling them that i wanna get out just a little bit more, and they fucking GO OFF ON ME! they say things like, "NO! why do you always wanna go out! you go out too much!" or they bring out the stupid guilt like "what! why do you always want to leave us?! you don`t appreciate everything we`re doing for you!" GOD DAMN. and i`m always fucking disappointing someone. half the time, i really don`t want to do something. but during the times when i DO want to go out, my dad won`t let me. because he doesn`t fucking trust me or he comes up with some stupid outlandish reason as to why i SHOULD STAY THE FUCK HOME ALL THE FUCKING TIME! then he says something like "oh. you can go to mcdonald`s if you want" AS IF THAT`S GOING TO ALLEVIATE ANY OF MY FUCKING FRUSTRATIONS. GOD DAMNIT! HONESTLY. what else am i supposed to DO! and what ELSE? my friends complain because they take my ass around, and i can`t take their asses around. my COUSINS complain that i`m unreliable. WELL I`M FUCKING SORRY GOD DAMNIT. it`s not like i WANT TO BE unreliable! i just want to be CAREFUL. i don`t want to get in trouble by my DAD because he fucking wants me to stay home all the time. i don`t have any trust in my life okay?! GOD DAMN! leave me the fuck alone! EVERYONE`s DRIVING ME NUTS! i can`t go to one of my best friend`s sister`s quinces because my dad JUST WON`T LET ME. i can`t go to the movies with you because my DAD WON`T LET ME. HE WON`T LET ME DO JACK SHIT. SO THERE`S YOUR FUCKING EXPLANATION. GOD DAMNIT...and don`t fucking hope to make me feel better by asking me to go to something stupid like...idk i can`t think of it right now, but damn. just ERGH. leave me alone. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.
