I really wish i knew how to come up with catchy titles>>just came home from a family gathering. we met at my tita`s house to greet my grandparents and tito and tita from their trip from the philippines. well, it`s really my grandparent`s visit to the states and my tito and tita`s trip back home. well yeah. i guess i`ll go backwards with my day, since i`ve never done that before. well let me see, at tita`s house us cousins just sat around in the living room talking to each other and laughing over stupid things. manong stanley`s friend? gf? helen was there. she`s from orange county. yeah. anyway...what else was i gonna say? before that, i went had gone to ross with my auntie jackie and mom and uncle roland. i got shoes. really nice shoes. trust me, i wouldn`t just go for any old shoe, i`m not weird like that. who cares if i shop bargain? at least i shop, and at least i get things that i think look nice. i`m sick of you people who patronize people for shopping bargain. who cares if you got a pair of pants for $200?! i can get 5 entire wardrobes with $200, and probably some food. so
bite me. but anyway, after we went shopping, we ate dinner at Goldilocks. and i didn`t get to buy my empanada AGAIN because that stupid store always closes on me. i swear, filipinos can be so stingy. once a store is closed..it is CLOSED, even if it`s only been one minute. hmm, before we went to newark, i went to st. victor`s to drop off this letter thing for my old teacher miss drake. i saw the set for their musical. imagine that...st. victor`s having a musical. i never would have thought. yeah, what else was i going to say? i`m sorry, i got distracted. hmm...ohh i remember now. i saw jomar, and i chilled with him for a little bit. it`s really funny, he`s in the musical. he`s wilbur the pig. hah, dork. hmm, before that, i was at home. you see, i was supposed to go to school today. however, i didn`t because i got sick again last night. so yeah, i didn`t go today. i myspaced and blogged and worked on my research paper all morning. but yeah. that`s my day in a nutshell. i also got in some time to converse with mike and krystal on the phone.
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if you`re gonna get pissed off at me then don`t read the next paragraph...
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now are you sure you won`t get pissed off at me for being pissed off?
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ok, you asked for it...
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okay so let`s talk. everything`s pissing me off. every little single thing. i mean, i`m sorry. but still. seriously, i`ve been getting pissed off at everything. for instance, today we were at goldilocks and the lady put all the meals on their own little tray. that way my auntie jackie would get a tray, my uncle roland would get a tray, and my mother and i would get a tray. what do i find when i get to the table? that my auntie jackie took everything off their little trays and started mixing everything up. for goodness sake, if it`s already on their little tray, then there`s no reason to take it off. GOSH. another thing, i get targetted too much. i didn`t even do anything, and they automatically make fun of me. gosh. no one cares. i was on my way home, and i contemplated that i would always be the one to leave parties early because i probably wouldn`t want to be there if they`re only gonna give me shit all the time. and it`s not all of them, just some of them. geez. i don`t even know what i did to annoy you. and it goes for both sides. and i shouldn`t even be putting this on my blog right now because i might get a lot of crap in my comment box about how i`m immature and that i need to grow up and that i always worry about myself and blah blah blah. it`s nothing i haven`t already heard, so don`t bother me with it anymore. i hear it when you say it, so stop saying it. and for your information, maybe i worry about myself because there`s no one else to worry about me for me. and forgive me for not sucking it up, i gotta dish it out somewhere. normally, i`d write this in my journal. but i got to the computer first. and truth is, i`m probably going to be too lazy to write any of this down in my journal later. what else has been pissing me off? oh i don`t know...lot`s of things. how i don`t get to do anything with my life. i`m quarantined in my little house, and i barely go out with my COUSINS even..on the weekends. my social life consists of my computer and the television. i want to go out, but at the same time i don`t want to go out. i get sad because my friends go out a lot. i get mad because my friends go out too much...without me. i get sad and mad at myself because i`m usually the one to say no. maybe it`s reflexes, maybe i say no just because i know there`s no point in asking my dad if i can go. i mean, i`m sorry if my parents aren`t as lenient as other parents, but i`m thankful they aren`t sometimes. if they were, i`d be out too much for my own good. i`m an introvert, i deserve to stay in my room and listen to emo and write in my journal and cry and complain and watch TV and play the piano. i don`t mean to diss my friends or anything, they can go out as much as they want, but yenno. Going out is more of an occassional thing for me. and another thing that pisses me off...i have GOT to learn how to keep my mouth shut sometimes. seriously, when i tell my mom about grades, i feel like, "oh my mom`s not gonna get mad." and that`s true, she doesn`t get mad, but she always asks questions. and what makes me mad even more is that she asks the SAME questions over and OVER and OVER and
OVER again. it`s like, STOP. GOSH I KNOW. i`m under so much stress, and the reason why i`m getting pissed off at everything is because of the stress. migraines are becoming a daily thing for me, and so are neck aches and nerve aches running up and down my arm. man a part of me wants to just erase this entire paragraph so that you wouldn`t have to see how pissed off i am. but i don`t feel like it. so if you read it, sucks for you.
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get off me.
