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hey everyone. i`ve been extremely bored with life lately. i`ve been pondering a lot. not really knowing exactly where my life desires to lead the rest of me. i don`t know if i would call myself stressed because i don`t know if i have MUCH to be stressed about. i don`t know. like i`ve said before, i think "i don`t know" is the stupidest phrase ever. i mean, seriously, when you hear the words "i don`t know" come out of a person, don`t you just want to smack them? (well not smack them, but don`t you get frustrated?) yes well, that`s how i feel right now. i hate being in a state of not knowing and i don`t even know what i`m not knowing. if you don`t get that, i`m sorry. i`m turning sixteen in a few days, you know. for eight of sixteen years, i`ve lived a life full of drama, tears, and feeling really alone. i`ve gotten through that. i`m glad for myself, but then there are times when i feel that if it hadn`t been for getting through that, then would i still have some sort of spice in my life? would i still be getting useless and bad attention--regardless of the fact of whether it was bad--as long as i was getting attention? you know what? forget that. forget wanting to be a drama bitch again. but anyway, i guess i just really need a vacation. i know, i just got back from one, but four days is NOT that long. i hate how time is so slow when you want it to go fast and fast when you want it to go slow. i hate hate hate that. it pisses me off. i hate how i "want" to grow up, but at the same time, i don`t want to. i hate how i`m writing deep thoughts in here rather than keeping it to myself, or writing it in my journal. i vowed to myself that i would never write deep thoughts in here except for semi-deep thoughts that have some sort of dark comedy to them. but look. here i am, writing my soul away to a bunch of people. (half of which i probably don`t know being that this site IS publicized) i hate how my school looks at our websites and uses them against us. i hate how adults think we can`t take care of ourselves when there are kids out there who are taking care of their adult parents drugging themselves up. i hate being sheltered from an environment i already know exists. i hate how i`m doing this. WHY am i doing this? i don`t know. i don`t know. i don`t know. there i go again writing that stupid phrase. i hate how i only have seven minutes to complete typing the thoughts in my heart on this stupid thing people like to call "blog". how have i succumbed to this? today i found myself actually saying, "i WANT a myspace." there was a time when i DID NOT want one just because i wanted to be individual. however, looking back on my life, i realize that i only wanted to be individual from certain people. then there were OTHER people who i looked and still DO look up to, and find myself doing what they`re doing. for instance, this blog. didn`t even know what a blog WAS when i found out my friend had one, and said, "um. blogs. ok." then my cousins got them, and i said, "ALRIGHT BLOG! WHOO HOO!" yes well. my time is quickly passing by me like i`m on the fastest train on the universe going a gajilion miles per hour in a life where i just want to slow down for a little bit, at some times. well kids...there`s my soul. don`t think i`ll be spilling it again anytime soon.
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danielle says hi.
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on a brighter note, ONE TREE HILL was FRIGGIN AWESOME last night.
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bye kids.

brick wall, waterfall...
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hey everyone. ok yesterday, i woke up and i was really bored. so i blogged and all that junk. after that, manang called me and she asked me if i wanted to go shopping with them. that was the most stressful shopping i`ve ever had to do, even though i didn`t really shop. i just bought lip gloss. however, my cousins had to find outfits for the dinner last night. they bought slammin outfits i must say so myself. it made me want to shop. it was interestingly weird how i was able to contain myself in all those stores and mananged to only buy lip gloss. but anyway, we stayed at the mall for two hours. i hate the not-so-great mall. it pisses me off. it`s always so friggin packed in there. i can`t breathe. you have twelve mothers with their kids ramming into you every two seconds. i had an asian lady or two screaming shit into my ear. and a little boy RAN INTO my purse and started crying. sheeshies. if you`re claustrophobic (spelling?)...anyway...if you`re that, you might not want to go to the not-so-great mall. after the mall, we went back to the car (which my cousin had so successfully parallel parked) and went along our way to target. we bought make-up and a card for the dinner celebrant. after that, we decided last minute that i was going to go along with them to the dinner. i felt awkward since it wasn`t really my family to go to...but i went just because i didn`t want to stay home. i don`t like staying home. so yes, we ran into my house where my cousins jumped into their new outfits and i got into some semi-formal clothing and make-upified my face. you see, we were running a little late--having to be there at 6 and it was already 5:45. yes, then we went to my cousins` house to get my tita and tito. then we left. somehow i knew where we were going to. in my mind i was saying "wouldn`t it be weird if we went to that place that we always pass by on the way to the dmv which is never open?" and we did. it`s a nice restaurant. it`s called china china. that place is friggin awesome. it has CRAB and SHRIMP and TATER TOTS! loved it man, loved it. yes. after eating, we talked about a lot of stuff that i can`t really recall right now. yes, what else? oh. i`m never eating another california roll or any type of sushi again. i mean...it wasn`t bad, but i was really full and i dared myself to eat a california roll...and well. not a pretty sight. my cousin said i looked like i wanted to gag. she spit hers out, too. ok well, i believe that`s it. when i got home i talked on the phone with michael as usual. and today i woke up at 12, making us too late for church so we`re going to go at 5 or something. later kids.